I’m a perfectionist. Not about all the things, or at all times, but I am.
I guess you could call me an anxious perfectionist.
What I mean about that, is that I typically don’t want to start a project or something new unless I’m sure I can do it, and do it well.
- Organizing the pantry? Only if I can pull out all of the things and start from scratch.
- Making Reels? I don’t really do videos/editing, so I need to research all the things first.
- Launching a blog? I must have it fully branded and optimized and an editorial calendar perfectly laid out.
Ok, so maybe the last example doesn’t really fall into that category. It was one of those instances where I stopped myself from going down my normal path of self-doubt and questioning and actually did the thing, which is why we’re here now. Hi and thanks for reading, BTW!
As you can kind of tell, actually getting this site launched was a one-off when it comes to my own projects. A one-off that I need to do more of.
There’s a Tweet I’ve seen a couple of times now that really resonated with me.
It’s me. I’m literally an oldest daughter who had an undiagnosed anxiety disorder and was frequently described as “a pleasure to have in class.”
What that really boils down to, is the fact that I’ve been a bit of a people pleaser the majority of my life. I’m working on it, and I’ve gotten better at speaking my mind on a lot of things, please just don’t ask me what we should eat. I HATE that discussion. I really dislike it when people are upset with me, so I tend to go out of my way to avoid that. When possible.
Of course, since becoming a parent, I’ve had to be less of a “yes man” than previous iterations. On more than one occasion Caiden has told me I’m a mean mom, go me! But I need to apply that to more aspects of my life. Especially the things that I’m actually interested in.
So what does that mean?
It means I need to get out of my own damn way.
- No more analysis paralysis. If something seems interesting, I want to give it a shot.
- Give it the old 10 minute try. At work we tend to analyze projects based on the filter of does it need an entire process, or is this something we could give our best 10 minutes to and call it good? I need to apply this to a lot of things in my personal life – especially cleaning/organizing around the house. 10 minutes of something is better than nothing.
- Acceptance. Perfection is a myth, and I need to remind myself of that fact. The vast majority of what I tackle, personally, isn’t going to be perfect. And. That’s. OK. The only way I’m going to get better is by doing it. Repeatedly.
Guess what this means for you, dear readers! I’m going to be writing more. Yes. I’m giving the 10 minute effort to my blog. A couple of times a week I’m going to give myself 10 minutes to start writing, and just do it. When that time’s done, if I’m feeling it, I’ll keep going. If not, I’ll hit publish and that will be it.
Y’all may hate this. Y’all may love it. I may get bored with it after a week. Who knows. It’s just an adventure in becoming less perfect that we’re going to go on together.
Yes, whether you want to or not, you’re seeing the end results. #SorryNotSorry